It’s hitting me. I have two days of school left and i graduate in 9. I registered for my college classes. I paid my tuition. I registered for housing. My mom bought me new luggage. Idk. I’m scared. I’m more than scared I’m terrified. I don’t know I keep telling myself that I’m ready and that I’m so mature, but if you think about it I’m still 17. I want to be a kid still, I’ve become so content with where I’m at. Sure i hate my home life, but i don’t want to grow up and face the real world…. Honestly I’m scared of failure, I’ve been able to breeze through life and now I’m actually going to have to work hard. And what if I don’t live up to everyone expectations? I guess I just don’t want to let anyone down, people expect to much of me. The pressure is real. I guess I’m just so worn out that thinking about working hard just discourages me. It’s hard to explain. I need sleep. It’s getting to me.